Thanks Beyonce for saying it for me, with the overwhelming viewership of 1 -- shoutout to you Kasey -- I've decided to talk about what I've been doing in my life and update every actual one.
I've very recently moved to Merrillville by myself so I can teach at a local elementary school. While there are certain things that make me nervous about the whole thing: not knowing anyone, not being at a well-supported school, not having any idea what to do right now while I can't get into my room, I am incredibly happy about what I am doing and where my life is going.
Let's talk about EX baby.. Without getting into it I was stupid and gave someone my time when it wasn't deserved but that is FINALLY over. And not even by my choice. That bothered me for a while. That he was the one to finally step up and say we have to stop this, and it was for someone else. But since I've had the whole summer to focus on me I've realized I should thank him for what he gave me. He gave me my life and my self-respect back. I have learned to accept nothing less than what I deserve and what I need. So I am completely ready to let the man who can give this to me into my life. Anytime you want babe- I'm ready.
I feel that being on my own is so good for me. While I can take care of myself I still rely heavily on other people for making my plans and deciding what things we will do. I need to work on being social and not having anxiety about going places, especially by myself. My first goal is to go to this super cute little bar and grill I saw by myself. I have no freaking idea what a person does when they go to a bar by themselves but if I could last 45 minutes I would be proud of myself. Maybe there will be a hot, single bartender that will keep me occupied. Maybe I should bring a book, kidding but if a man can't love me for being who I am I would rather not waste my time with them anyways. I've conquered going to movies alone so it's time for this new adventure. And at least I'll get food out of it.
Well another pointless post by me but get used to it. Maybe in another year I'll post again, until next time. *pounds chest twice and throws up deuces*
Monday, July 18, 2016
Sunday, June 7, 2015
I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T Do You Know What That Means?
.... It means I went on a camping trip with Kasey and Elaine and relied on no one but ourselves the entire trip. We didn't ask for help from anyone, we just improvised and made it all happen.
*** side note: We did ask for help once. When we first arrived we weren't sure where we were supposed to set up our tent so we asked a guy that we thought was going to be our neighbor if he thought we could pitch our tent in the spot that we ended up in. But let's be honest, he was no help so really we made that decision on our own still.
*** another side note: I asked for help before the trip on a few things so that way once we actually went camping we would know how to do everything.
So camping...
Day 1:
Kasey and I had a crazy day at work, everyone at the Daycare had a crazy day, so instead of getting off at 1 like we were supposed to we each worked until at least 1:30 setting us back a little bit. Once we finally got off we quickly packed up the coolers with food and drinks and loaded up the car. I was determined to use no internet this trip so I wouldn't be tempted to use Google or GPS. I printed out Google Maps directions beforehand so that we had to only rely on those to get us to Raccoon Lake. And guess what? We actually made it without getting lost! Anyone who knows me knows I'm terrible with directions so to me this is a huge accomplishment. Shoutout to Kasey for reading the directions and making sure I took all the correct turns. You da best.
When we got close to the campsite it started to sprinkle and Kasey mentioned how we shouldn't worry because that was all the rain we were going to get, even though it was supposed to rain for the next hour. Well what do you know, she was right. We had beautiful weather all weekend. A nice breeze was going and it was cloudy enough that we didn't feel like we were baking in the sun all day. I already mentioned the embarrassing moment when we had to ask for help on where our camp lawn even was at. At that moment I was a little worried that we wouldn't be able to handle the entire weekend on our own. I got even more nervous once Elaine arrived and we started putting up the tent. One of the support poles was broken so we had to improvise and make a splint out of firewood to keep it supporting it's own weight all weekend.
(Doesn't look pretty but hey, it worked)
Once we set up the tent and unloaded the rest of our stuff it was time to tackle the next obstacle: starting a fire to cook dinner on. Thank goodness Elaine was able to come because she was the weekend Fire Master. We probably would have starved to death without her expertise on how to get a fire starting. Speaking for myself, I know absolutely nothing about starting a fire and keeping it going. We crushed that campfire dinner. Shoutout to us for not burning anything down and keeping the fire going enough to cook on it.
(Here is Kasey learning from Fire Master, Elaine, how to make the fire. Just so everyone knows, Kasey made this fire on her first try, thus making herself Fire Master as well. I sat on my butt the entire time watching. I like to consider it observing to learn. So I'm sure I could start a fire on my own after all the observing I did this weekend.)
Since we are super cool we ended up going to bed by 10. Sleeping on the ground wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. So, yay for that.
Day 2:
We slept in... until 8AM. Is that even considered sleeping in? I guess when you are sleeping on a hard ground and there is a million kids making noise around your paper thin tent that's not half bad. We made a pretty great breakfast of eggs, hashbrowns, and sausage to fuel us up for our hike. We went to Turkey Run and hiked for at least 5 miles. We even packed lunches so we could eat on the trails. Sandwiches, fresh fruit, granola bars, and chips. We had to find a spot where children weren't, because we were sick of seeing children. After the hike we went back to our campground and I took a solid nap in the uncomfortable lawn chair. I like to be comfortable when I sleep so that is a testament to how tired I was.
*** side note: We did ask for help once. When we first arrived we weren't sure where we were supposed to set up our tent so we asked a guy that we thought was going to be our neighbor if he thought we could pitch our tent in the spot that we ended up in. But let's be honest, he was no help so really we made that decision on our own still.
*** another side note: I asked for help before the trip on a few things so that way once we actually went camping we would know how to do everything.
So camping...
Day 1:
Kasey and I had a crazy day at work, everyone at the Daycare had a crazy day, so instead of getting off at 1 like we were supposed to we each worked until at least 1:30 setting us back a little bit. Once we finally got off we quickly packed up the coolers with food and drinks and loaded up the car. I was determined to use no internet this trip so I wouldn't be tempted to use Google or GPS. I printed out Google Maps directions beforehand so that we had to only rely on those to get us to Raccoon Lake. And guess what? We actually made it without getting lost! Anyone who knows me knows I'm terrible with directions so to me this is a huge accomplishment. Shoutout to Kasey for reading the directions and making sure I took all the correct turns. You da best.
When we got close to the campsite it started to sprinkle and Kasey mentioned how we shouldn't worry because that was all the rain we were going to get, even though it was supposed to rain for the next hour. Well what do you know, she was right. We had beautiful weather all weekend. A nice breeze was going and it was cloudy enough that we didn't feel like we were baking in the sun all day. I already mentioned the embarrassing moment when we had to ask for help on where our camp lawn even was at. At that moment I was a little worried that we wouldn't be able to handle the entire weekend on our own. I got even more nervous once Elaine arrived and we started putting up the tent. One of the support poles was broken so we had to improvise and make a splint out of firewood to keep it supporting it's own weight all weekend.
Once we set up the tent and unloaded the rest of our stuff it was time to tackle the next obstacle: starting a fire to cook dinner on. Thank goodness Elaine was able to come because she was the weekend Fire Master. We probably would have starved to death without her expertise on how to get a fire starting. Speaking for myself, I know absolutely nothing about starting a fire and keeping it going. We crushed that campfire dinner. Shoutout to us for not burning anything down and keeping the fire going enough to cook on it.
Since we are super cool we ended up going to bed by 10. Sleeping on the ground wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. So, yay for that.
Day 2:
We slept in... until 8AM. Is that even considered sleeping in? I guess when you are sleeping on a hard ground and there is a million kids making noise around your paper thin tent that's not half bad. We made a pretty great breakfast of eggs, hashbrowns, and sausage to fuel us up for our hike. We went to Turkey Run and hiked for at least 5 miles. We even packed lunches so we could eat on the trails. Sandwiches, fresh fruit, granola bars, and chips. We had to find a spot where children weren't, because we were sick of seeing children. After the hike we went back to our campground and I took a solid nap in the uncomfortable lawn chair. I like to be comfortable when I sleep so that is a testament to how tired I was.
(Elaine was also Trail Leader, she basically is an extraordinaire)
Dinner this night consisted of hotdogs that we speared on sticks from the forest and cooked over the fire that KASEY made. It might not impress anyone else, but my mom was super impressed that we would "rough it" enough to eat food that we had to spear on sticks to cook.
Kasey and I's coworker, Jennie, came around 8:30 to stay the night with us. She is hilarious and it was great that she could come out for the night. Things got a little crazy after quiet hours when not one, but THREE, old guy camp security men had to come over and ask us to keep it quiet. Yeah, that's right. It took three old men to tame our party. We even stayed up until like 12:30, so suck it bedtime.
Day 3:
We ended up getting up earlier and cooked another delicious breakfast: eggs, hashbrowns, and bacon. Camping isn't gonna stop us from eating well. And eating we did. I wasn't ever hungry the entire trip. To make it worse, I was full almost the entire time yet I rallied and continued to eat so we wouldn't have to bring home any food. Probably gained like 300 pounds and my stomach is not happy with me but we accomplished our goal of no leftovers. Much success. We got home at around noon and then I napped super hard. Because nothing like a "vacation" to make someone tired and wish for days of sleep.
Random shoutouts to people who helped make this vacation a success:
*My mom for helping me decide what I needed to bring with, for having all the supplies already, and for giving me directions on how to cook dinner over the fire. You saved me from starving, so thanks.
*Blaine for coming over and showing me how to set up the tent before we went so I could figure it out once we got there. Also thanks for not breaking the support beam and leaving that for me to do when I took it down the next day. I can't forget, thanks for crawling into the camper with me and helping me pull out all the things I'd need.
*My dad for pulling out the AC unit because what if I got hot when I was sleeping? I can't live under those conditions.
ONE RAGRET: when we went grocery shopping on Thursday before the trip we left our alcohol and the check-out. Who does that? Only thing I would change about the entire trip.
Monday, May 25, 2015
Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
Three day weekend! Let's rage and stay up all night, or let's pull a Sydney and watch YouTube videos for three hours and go to bed early.
3 Things I've discovered during my wild weekend:
1) YouTube is the best. I started watching one video and next thing I know its three hours later and I haven't moved from the same spot once. I have found a few different hilarious channels that when you feel like not being productive (me everyday) you should check out. The first is Todrick Hall (todrickhall). He is fierce and comes up with some amazing stuff. He basically does ghetto versions of the Disney Princesses. His "Once Upon a Crime" episodes basically killed me. Another good channel is the Epic Rap Battles (ERB). They take characters from history and have them rap battle in extremely inappropriate ways. For example, Mary Poppins versus Mrs. Clause and Napoleon Bonaparte versus Napoleon Dynamite. You could spend an entire day trying to watch all of these because there are so many, and you wouldn't ever get tired of it. Chalk that claim up as personal experience. What can I say, my Saturday night got pretty wild.
2) I'm the grandma of my friend's group and I can't do anything about it. I texted a friend to ask if we were all trying to get together or not Sunday night and his reply was that he wanted to but he had a wedding reception to go to first. He would try to not make it too late because grandma (me) can't stay up very late. And the sad thing, he is right. I was sleeping by 10pm that night. Another thing that helps to show how grandma-ish I am, I was shopping with my Mom at Kohl's and passed the section for older women. I saw all the dresses and thought to myself, "I can't wait until it's socially acceptable for me to wear those." I need help.
3) I love my job despite the stress it brings to me. This past week in the infant room at the daycare was a nightmare. We didn't split our room up into 0-6 months in one room and 6-12 months in a new room yet so we had all the kids still together. That meant our numbers were roughly 18 babies to 5 adults every day for the week. By Friday I was so mentally exhausted that I threatened to push a baby over if he crawled any closer to me with his snotty nose. I mean after I've been pooped on by said kid, spit on with his weird food his parents provide, I just couldn't handle getting snot wiped all over me. I almost cried that day. But here I am, only three days later and I'm still excited about going back to work tomorrow. It's not even going to be a fun week. Only a 4 day work week and I'm getting in 39 hours. It'll be intense but the babies are cute, my coworkers are amazing, and the work environment is just what I want. I couldn't imagine working my summer anywhere else. Added bonus: it allows me to live in my apartment at school for the whole summer and not have to move back in with my parents!
To sum up my weekend, I really wouldn't change a thing that I did. I had a great time fishing with Vanessa, setting up a tent to go camping with the help of B, and doing yard work with my parents. In my endless downtime I hung out with Finnigan (my dog). This is my life and dammit I love it.
3 Things I've discovered during my wild weekend:
1) YouTube is the best. I started watching one video and next thing I know its three hours later and I haven't moved from the same spot once. I have found a few different hilarious channels that when you feel like not being productive (me everyday) you should check out. The first is Todrick Hall (todrickhall). He is fierce and comes up with some amazing stuff. He basically does ghetto versions of the Disney Princesses. His "Once Upon a Crime" episodes basically killed me. Another good channel is the Epic Rap Battles (ERB). They take characters from history and have them rap battle in extremely inappropriate ways. For example, Mary Poppins versus Mrs. Clause and Napoleon Bonaparte versus Napoleon Dynamite. You could spend an entire day trying to watch all of these because there are so many, and you wouldn't ever get tired of it. Chalk that claim up as personal experience. What can I say, my Saturday night got pretty wild.
2) I'm the grandma of my friend's group and I can't do anything about it. I texted a friend to ask if we were all trying to get together or not Sunday night and his reply was that he wanted to but he had a wedding reception to go to first. He would try to not make it too late because grandma (me) can't stay up very late. And the sad thing, he is right. I was sleeping by 10pm that night. Another thing that helps to show how grandma-ish I am, I was shopping with my Mom at Kohl's and passed the section for older women. I saw all the dresses and thought to myself, "I can't wait until it's socially acceptable for me to wear those." I need help.
3) I love my job despite the stress it brings to me. This past week in the infant room at the daycare was a nightmare. We didn't split our room up into 0-6 months in one room and 6-12 months in a new room yet so we had all the kids still together. That meant our numbers were roughly 18 babies to 5 adults every day for the week. By Friday I was so mentally exhausted that I threatened to push a baby over if he crawled any closer to me with his snotty nose. I mean after I've been pooped on by said kid, spit on with his weird food his parents provide, I just couldn't handle getting snot wiped all over me. I almost cried that day. But here I am, only three days later and I'm still excited about going back to work tomorrow. It's not even going to be a fun week. Only a 4 day work week and I'm getting in 39 hours. It'll be intense but the babies are cute, my coworkers are amazing, and the work environment is just what I want. I couldn't imagine working my summer anywhere else. Added bonus: it allows me to live in my apartment at school for the whole summer and not have to move back in with my parents!
To sum up my weekend, I really wouldn't change a thing that I did. I had a great time fishing with Vanessa, setting up a tent to go camping with the help of B, and doing yard work with my parents. In my endless downtime I hung out with Finnigan (my dog). This is my life and dammit I love it.
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
(Hey Mama) I Wanna Scream So Loud For You
Since I'm living on a budget (aka, I'm broke and in college) I'm not buying my mom anything for Mother's Day, instead I'm going to blog about her which she will never see. So Happy Mother's Day, Mom. You da real MVP. One of my favorite things about my Ma (why do I call her Ma? Wish I knew. Must be a hillbillly thing) is that she accepts how weird I am and has become equally as weird. I could come up with any pet name ever and she would come up with one just as off-the-wall. Case in point, here are some actual texts between the two of us.
Me: Guess what baby
Mom: What pickle?
Me: Thanks baby duck
Mom: Anytime bullfrog
Me: I might have to start requiring you guys to call me by my street name (which I'm still coming up with)
Mom: Kidney bean
Me: (uplifting text to make her feel better about her shitty family)
Mom: Thanks peanut butter
Sometimes I want to play a game with her and see how weird of names I can call her before she starts to question my sanity. I think it would take a lot, she's had many years to get used to the fact I'm not a normal daughter.
Besides being my Turtle Toes (something I could call her and she'd be okay with), my mom also is always looking out for me on the dating front...
About my being always sick thanks to the babes at the daycare, "Marry any kind of doctor with lots of doctor friends" or "You better marry a dermatologist"
A picture of the group at Kasey's birthday, with her dad in the picture. "Is that a boy?"
Sent her a picture of the group at the toga party... "Nice. Those boys look like trouble lol have fun but remember never take a drink from anyone and don't go to the bathroom alone"
Shout out to you Ma, always got a girl's back
So, basically my mom is the best thing that ever happened to me. I know she thinks she was lucky to end up with my dad, but he is the lucky one. She is beautiful, honest, great at advice giving, and she can put up with a crazy family. I would honestly consider her my best friend, but she hates the term best friend because I have like 10 of them and to her that's not "best." So she's a "special" friend to me and I'm forever thankful for her.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
We All Need Somebody To Lean On
Can we just take a quick second and let me talk about how I have the absolute greatest friends ever. Like, forever ever. Ever, ever (Kanye West, 2005). We may be small in numbers, but dammit we are fierce. Jaylin and Kayla, whom I'll be living with next year, are my go-to girls. Guaranteed that you'll find me at their place every single weekend. If I didn't have them this semester I probably would've gone crazy and shaved my head. The end of the world, aka our move in date, is only 115 days away! I cannot wait to wake up to those beauties every single day. Then there is Kasey, or my future wife as I like to call her. Being in education together, working at the same place, AND both living at school over the summer, we see a lot of each other. But lesbihonest it still isn't enough time. I wouldn't have wanted to experience #RVTrip2k14 with anyone but her. That's right people, we take family vacations together. If that isn't romantic than I don't know what is. Speaking of family, Vanessa. She just texted me yesterday and tells me about how she showed up to my parents house and rang the doorbell. She says my dad opens up the door and says "Connie it's just Vanessa you don't have to put pants on." That makes my heart happy. Not only do I think of her as my sister/soulmate, my family feels the same way. Ever since 7th grade when she came to my school and was just herself, which is social, honest, carefree, and perfect, we've been inseparable. I feel that if a friendship has been able to last 8 years and two babies then we can make it 'til the end. I'm not sure what this means because I'm super lame but she is my ride or die.
I could list reasons for eternity about why I love all of these girls, plus tons of other people, but I would rather just chronicle some of our recent fun to show you why they are perfect, beautiful daisies.
I could list reasons for eternity about why I love all of these girls, plus tons of other people, but I would rather just chronicle some of our recent fun to show you why they are perfect, beautiful daisies.
[We are living together, prepare yourselves.]
[Obviously, squad goals.]
[Never a dull moment with my Ness]
[Timeflies Concert, PSA: Cal is bae]
[Lovey]
[Do I even need to explain why I love this picture so much?]
[We will be teaching your children one day]
[The standard Jay/Syd pose.. Just flexin on our haters?]
[Did you guys hear about that girl who broke her foot dancing too hard? That's my best friend]
[So much love, such a weird day. Let's not even talk about what went down to get this tank]
Hey, what's up? Hello
[Sleeping Beauty - The Great Wisdom Teeth Extraction of 2013]
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