Thanks Beyonce for saying it for me, with the overwhelming viewership of 1 -- shoutout to you Kasey -- I've decided to talk about what I've been doing in my life and update every actual one.
I've very recently moved to Merrillville by myself so I can teach at a local elementary school. While there are certain things that make me nervous about the whole thing: not knowing anyone, not being at a well-supported school, not having any idea what to do right now while I can't get into my room, I am incredibly happy about what I am doing and where my life is going.
Let's talk about EX baby.. Without getting into it I was stupid and gave someone my time when it wasn't deserved but that is FINALLY over. And not even by my choice. That bothered me for a while. That he was the one to finally step up and say we have to stop this, and it was for someone else. But since I've had the whole summer to focus on me I've realized I should thank him for what he gave me. He gave me my life and my self-respect back. I have learned to accept nothing less than what I deserve and what I need. So I am completely ready to let the man who can give this to me into my life. Anytime you want babe- I'm ready.
I feel that being on my own is so good for me. While I can take care of myself I still rely heavily on other people for making my plans and deciding what things we will do. I need to work on being social and not having anxiety about going places, especially by myself. My first goal is to go to this super cute little bar and grill I saw by myself. I have no freaking idea what a person does when they go to a bar by themselves but if I could last 45 minutes I would be proud of myself. Maybe there will be a hot, single bartender that will keep me occupied. Maybe I should bring a book, kidding but if a man can't love me for being who I am I would rather not waste my time with them anyways. I've conquered going to movies alone so it's time for this new adventure. And at least I'll get food out of it.
Well another pointless post by me but get used to it. Maybe in another year I'll post again, until next time. *pounds chest twice and throws up deuces*
